Even though I’ve only just started this blog, I’ve taken a brief break. Several things led me to this completely unintentional break. But the most relevant cause was something they don’t tell you about. They? They who? Well, the people who run similar blogs to mine. You know, the “search for a happier life” blogs. And what’s that thing that they don’t tell you? It’s hard. Sure, some of us tell you that little tidbit of info. But I’ve been following many blogs like my own for years now and most don’t tell you that. They don’t tell you that this ride gets depressing. And about all the regrets you face because you start to realize that your “unhealthy” life was easier.
But I’ll tell you this much: it’s worth it. I’ve been facing a lot of doubts about this journey I’m taking. I knew it’d be difficult finding a new job especially after willingly quitting my last one. But I didn’t figure I’d be unemployed 3 months later with my credentials. And I know, it sounds like I’m mindlessly complaining. I’m not. I’m just letting anyone who’s considering doing this too that it’s not easy. It’s a lot of work. You have to find ways to cope when you previously had the means and finances to take care of your problems. You have to scavenge and find other resources even when your problems are mounting higher and higher and it starts to look hopeless. But it is worth it.
I haven’t found as many resources as I would have liked to by now. But I can tell you that I have grown in ways I never thought I would. The extra time on my hands has allowed me to learn so many things about myself and life in general. I’ve been able to spend a lot of valuable time with my fiance and grow our relationship in ways I never thought possible. I’ve been able to really plot out my dreams. And I’ve been able to find the flaws in my plans through experience, thoughts, and the help of others. The latter is a big thing in my life now. Being nearly resourceless now, I’ve learned that sometimes you have to ask for help. And you learn that most people are willing to help.
So, do I regret my choices to find a happier, healthy life? Sometimes, yes. Because sometimes it seems too hard. But do I find it equally worth it? – The knowledge I’ve gained, the experiences I’ve had, the love I’ve found? Yes. It’s every bit worth it.